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Day 3: Angels and Autism and "Breaking" Traditional Shem Rituals

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Chaweon Koo
January 07, 2025

This series of posts are a recap and re-analysis of “Angel Alchemy Project, ” my 1-month-only-Patreon project during April 2024. During this month, which included a weekend ayahuasca retreat, I documented 20+ Shem Angel workings. At the end of April, I had to turn off the Patreon, or else it would keep charging people, so links go Google Doc copies, with screenshots of comments from the posts as well.

Remember when I said that half-starving myself absolutely helped my angel magick? Being light-headed feels like, as Shakespeare put it “one foot in sea, and one on shore” — no longer bound to color within the lines.

By Day 3 (that was quick!) of doing the by-the-books Shem rituals, I found it really easy to discern energy and power in my body. When my body is too comfortable and sated (big meal, big sex, etc), then the subtleties of energy are lost in the squishy broad strokes of digestion or sleepiness. The chemicals in my body are chillin’.

But when I’m on edge in my body, then there is a certain alertness that arises. But remember, I’m not actually starving myself, as you saw in my previous vlogs; I’m just drastically cutting calories and spices (a.k.a. sensual enjoyment of food).

In this alertness, I can notice aches, twinges, surges of energy, anything in my body, far more clearly. And as my monkey brain is 24/7 constantly brainstorming, my body is acting like the American Idol judging panel - this idea is meh, that idea is meh, that idea is meh…meh…meh…meh….meh…meh — WAIT HOLD ON!

And a sudden surge of energy that feels like excitement. And because I’m am a huge proponent of a esoteric self-knowledge system called Human Design (this is linked to my TikTok playlist with over 70 videos about Human Design), this surge is significant to me.

After this log-in break: a video that explains the genesis of this “break the angel magick”

I didn’t set out to “break” angel magick — this was a totally organic and unexpected experience. Once my body gives me a clear “YES” via energy, then I have a certain process I follow, thanks again to Human Design.

This process (daydream > energy surge > wait to confirm > let’s fucking go) is best suited for Manifesting Generator types like me, and it affords me the most valuable thing possible: good timing in order to leverage natural energy.

This process may sound super obvious to the average people, but for an AuADHD person like me, I draw a total blank when it comes to basic human “code.” Like, “if A then go to B” makes zero logical sense to me; I immediately wonder, “wait, why B?”

First astrology, and now Human Design, actually has a rationale of “why B?” and so I can comfortably move in ways that reduce friction and misery for myself.

I know I speak of HD vaguely now, but that’s because I linked my whole TikTok playlist of Human Design above , and I’m trying to learn how to stay focused and not get pulled into tangents constantly. Let’s attempt to consider one thing at a time.

Without a doubt, one of the greatest gifts of HD is how it helped me radically accept my AuADHD behaviors. In fact, see them as a point of pride, a collection of super powers. In that sense, HD helped me relax some of the most uncomfortable masking I engaged in, which in turn helped me be more of…me.

So, it just made sense to bring HD into angel magick, because angel magick is one of the most powerful de-conditioning magick systems I’ve experienced. The archetypes of the angels is a stereotype of the brilliant but socially inept, intense, and seemingly emotionless autistic. But ultimately, even neurotypical people have to let go of the shackles of “respectability” to be their authentic selves, and what better role model than psychotic aliens (a.k.a. Shem angels).

Layer in Human Design to help personalize each “type” and voila - could Shem Angel Magick become the ultimate rug pull of fakery and uncomfortable masking? Like, Shem Angels are NOTORIOUS for burning down things that don’t serve you, and HD is literally waving its arm to decondition you.