Almost losing TikTok and Trump becoming President really cramped my style

I started making serious money when I was around 43-years-old.

Sure, I had been making a regular salary beforehand, but life is different when you make enough money to afford a doorman / elevator apartment in NYC. My Korean-American family started being nicer to me, because they no longer saw me as a loser.

Jupiter magick, demon magick, and even angel magick helped align me to this lifestyle. And then in 2024, I really got into psychedelics. But then the psychedelics made me super unstable so I spent a shit ton of money on two different therapists. I didn’t work for more than 6 months straight, because pulling myself from the precipice of spiritual psychosis was my full-time job. By Halloween, I felt like a sane adult again.

Then, a few days later on November 5, 2024 Trump won the election. That night, as I watched America go red, my blood was fizzing with survival anxiety that I hadn’t experienced in years.

After doing almost zero work during all of 2024 and racking up huge expenses, I was down to about 3 months of savings. And now Trump was threatening to deport undocumented workers and to slam tariffs on Chinese goods. In other words, it wouldn’t take a psychic to predict that food prices in America might skyrocket, as would the price of most consumer goods.

If I wasn’t freshly out of a 6-month mental health crisis, I would have jumped into aggressive levels of magick ritual. But I could only do a single Jupiter ritual, and then my energy snuffed out.

Fortunately, something in my body pulled me to start looking at other apartments. Non-luxury apartments. I pushed down the feelings of slipping into loser-dom. Wasn’t adult life supposed to be always on the up and up? Why was I downgrading now, after fighting for so long for some status in the world?

But I couldn’t deny that my body felt way more relaxed when I started slashing my expenses. Sure, I felt like shit when I could no longer just buy $400 Lego sets for my nephew every month. Cutting back on GrubHub was painful. I even decreased some therapy sessions. But deep down, we all know when we’re making the right choice. My ego felt bummed out, but intense psychedelic integration had really dismantled a lot of the most activated parts of that ego. I slashed my expenses by 80% and my CPA was impressed. She said that I was smart to be austere and conservative with my money in 2025.

By the way, I’ve never been austere and conservative with my money before. I feel like an adult, and I thought I’d feel super proud but instead I feel nothing. This is just business. Which, I guess, is the hallmark of an adult? That I just do what needs to be done with little angst or self-aggrandizement.

I told my therapist, Brooke, “strangely, these austerity measures make me feel really expansive. Very Jupiterian.” Brooke is a witch herself, so totally got what I was trying to say.

I’m now in another apartment, not nearly as luxurious as before, but my rent and utilities are so low that my CPA then started to tell me that I had a lot less to write off on my taxes. But, no worries.

And I didn’t. I moved into my new apartment in December, and promptly got sick, because my autistic brain gets super stressed with routine changes. Barely worked in December, but I still had 3 months savings, so no worries.

Until the TikTok ban fiasco happened. And I saw my income plummet as people started going hysterical about the ban. The FUD (fear, uncertainty, doubt, which by the way is a term used to describe the mood of investors when the crypto markets are down) was starting to influence me as well.

Then, this past Friday, I felt another energetic pull in my body. You guys may know that I’m super into Human Design, and so I really listen to energy bursts from my body. And I suddenly just felt like putting on this free class about Jupiterian shadow work.

Mainly because I’m selfish and wanted to do 2 weeks of Jupiterian magick and wanted others to keep my company. What’s the point of having a big community of witches if you can’t find people to do magick with, amirite?

It’s been YEARS since I’ve done 2 weeks straight of Jupiter magick. Because I generally don’t need to - just 1-2 days and boom, the train of Jupiter starts chugging along just fine. In fact, I’ve often avoided doing Jupiter magick because it worked too well for me; yes, I’d make more money, but I’d also work a lot more too. I’d burn out.

But it’s also been a long time since I’ve felt a deep protective sense. Maybe Trump’s crazy rhetoric will gentle and the economy won’t go nuts. But in case shit goes sideways, I don’t want to be caught holding a bag filled with unnecessary shit. I need to get lean, so I have flexibility. Times like this, when things are uncertain, we need to maximize flexibility. Flexibility is resilience.

Is it strange that I feel…intrigued? The last time I felt this intrigue was back in March, when I decided to do 20+ Shem Angel rituals during April 2024. I wonder what Jupiter magick is going to teach me this time. I’m not the same person who started back in 2017. And the world is a very different place.

Jupiter…let’s fucking go